WITHOUTYOU

I hate goodbyes. I'm feeling so empty right now , it's like i hate how everything reminds me of you but then again i miss you so badly i can bleed.You've just left me for about 45 mins but it seems like it has been forever. The room is still in a mess with all the remnants of your junks. I've always wanted you to clear up all the mess in our room but now i want it to stay cos it's all i've left of you. I'm afraid that one day i shall come home and see the room to be so clean that it amplifies your absence cause those are the only things that still hold your smell . You're one of a kind and i know i can never find anyone just like you, someone who i can tell everything to, when i say everything i mean everything. Someone who will be there in the middle of the night when i'm crying my heart out. Now, I don't know who to look for when i want to just come home and tell someone about my day in school, about the boy that is making me insane, about the incidents that i won't forget, about my soccer training, about my classmates. A few months back, when you told me you were planning to go to the States , it seems like it would never happen , little did it jolt me that you were gna leave and i am suppose to be strong and live here on my own. I hate how nothing lasts forever . It really breaks my heart to see you go because you are like my own sister and and its painful not knowing how a future without you is gonna be like. p.s i downloaded skype just for you(God bless the technology). I know we have to move on cos life is constantly chaning and all i can do is to wish you well over there. Take care my dear, i really really hope we'll meet in December before you really go for good.I love you.